What does Suffering mean.
Well to many it means physical pain, however the type of suffering I am referring to causes much more than physical pain, it is a numbing, wrenching, aching, non-relieving, emotional pain.
Some would call it depression, some would find other words for it, but if you are suffering so much with the pain of life and in every aspect of life, then this is what I refer to as suffering.
As a child sometimes things would feel so bad that I would go to bed at night and hope that I did not wake up in the morning, and at other times wishing that my real parents would come and collect me, because these could not be my real parents.
Mix this up with the tremendous guilt I would feel for even thinking this way, and the terror in case my parents had a way of knowing that I was suffering such deep pain.
I survived my childhood years, and even my teenage years, although I endured so much emotional pain, my mother threatening to put her head in the gas oven because no one wanted to stay at home with her, this was a regular threat.
And then horror of horror I got married to a strong man, who I believed would stand up to my Mother and it just made me in the middle of the two of them!
This is when I really felt what emotional pain could become.
I would wander aimlessly through each day, trying to make them both happy, I had a young baby who had I also had to keep quite so she did not disturb my husband.
I had very little sleep and eventually all my emotional pain caught up with me and one day I went out, driving my car, turned the corner and stopped in the middle of the road, not knowing who I was, where I was, or how I got to be sitting in a car.
My mind just shut down.
I knew no one, wanted nothing but to be left alone and lay in a bed.
I was not thinking, just totally numb.
This was the result of bottling up all that suffering, pushing it down, down, down until my system could not cope with it any longer and I had what they called a nervous break down.
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